Start small. Decide that for 60 seconds tonight you are going to lift your husband up before the Lord. Do it literally, using your hands. If not one word comes out of your mouth, that is fine. But I bet by the end of the week, if you really commit, you'll have something to say. Do this: Pray for the children's Daddy. That should give you a good starting point. I'll make a deal with you and do the same, how about that? 60 seconds. How bad can it be?
As for the verse, no, it's not about being punished more and the fact you even made that statement tells me you operate more from a place of guilt than deliverance.
