I guess you have to ask yourself, what do YOU want to do? Your situation kind of confuses me - your wife left, but YOU filed for divorce? So do you want to be divorced?
Sounds to me like your reactions are a little knee-jerk given you're only in this 6 weeks. I was the same way for about 4 weeks, I'd say. Well, I never wanted to be divorced, but I was upset.
get some counseling, take your wife with you if she'll go, and the two of you decide what you really want. If you want to work things out, let her come home but be prepared. Don't fall into your old ways, and if she does, talk things out. Listen to her, understand her, and be empathetic. At the same time, don't be a wuss. Expect her to understand you, but be cool about it - no fighting, no arguing, no accusing, no blaming. Then get to a place where the past isn't the story you keep telling over and over but a learning situation that you're using to make the future better. If you can look forward instead of backwards, and get to a positive place instead of the negative one you're both in right now, you can make it.
We can talk ourselves into defeat or we can talk ourselves into victory - we are creatures of our thinking.
3/31/07 - Hit with a brick, leaving the dent there...
