He just called to say he wants to come over tonight around 6 to drop off camping stuff.

I can EITHER be here and "act as if" OR I can go to a divorce support group. (I don't know if I really want to go to the DS group. I have a fairly busy week planned.) I haven't seen him since last Tuesday. ...does it matter?

He asked if I would be home, I said I wasn't sure but he knows where stuff goes. He's like "yup-I do." and then he goes "ok, well, I'll be by later and if I see you, I see you."
I tried to sound upbeat. But I didn't ask anything about whether or not he had fun, where he went etc.

This is so horrible. Part of me so wants to see him and the other part never wants to see him again.

Me-43
H-46
M 12 yrs 7/09
T 15
2 grown kids
bomb 7/05/07
H moved out 8/04/07
11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling
Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D
End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing