I think if he was serious, he wouldn't have hit me with the bomb last Tuesday that he doesn't love me like he should, and it's not fair to me....he's done.
Sure, I want him home. I want him back, I want him to try. I want him to try MC with me. He's not there.
He has said a part of him was never meant to be married. He got a taste of freedom and ran.
It's not healthy for me to keep hoping or hanging my hopes on him. It's not fair to him either. And you know...if he came to me in a month, said he missed me and wanted to try....I really don't know if I"d believe him anymore. This is at least twice that I've been let down like this. Third time's a charm....or just a bigger fool?
I am keeping the house. I got rid of three trashbags full of old papers, etc. Got all of D's papers from Kindy & 1st grade filed away. Had a good weekend with her.
This weekend was his b-day. I sent a text at midnight on Sunday morning telling him happy b-day. We were all supposed to go to dinner but I bowed out. He called that afternoon, but I missed the call. I called him back but let him talk to D - I didn't talk to him at all. I'm too emotional, and it was his b-day. He sent a text later saying thanks for the b-day wishes.
It's like I'm an acquaintence to him now....
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
