Jeff, it's okay to hurt and feel ripped apart. You have to process those feelings to put them away. What you should not do is wallow around in them until you get bitter and hard against the world. Find a way up and out. Prescription drugs or therapy might be the answer. OTC drugs or herbs might help. Mostly IMO you need to do something other than go to work and go to your apartment. Interact with people in the real world. Send a smile to the checkout people, hold the door for someone at the grocery store, say good job to the ref at the kids games. Start small like that if you are afraid of being hurt again. There are many good people that would be happy to have you send a smile their way and you don't even know them.
What's the status of getting your place back?
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
