Well here I am....

[COG]

KS,

I'll stop posting though - so you don't have to read my angst.

Well that choice is up to you, but this is YOUR thread, so I can also bug out.

I totally understand your angst, believie me I understand. I'm just more interested, more motivated to help you spew joy. It'll come some day, have faith. You've just fallen out of the spin cycle and trying to get back on your feet.

Well Cog, considering up until less than a week ago, H had told me he WOULD try

Yep, that's a tough one. It's still a fresh wound. Like a friggin hot knife in the chest.

and considering it didn't matter if I wanted the divorce or not because in our state he can divorce me without my signature or ink

Look, I don't want to split hairs here, but you chose to sign. That was your choice. If the law allows him to D you, then fine, he should have been allowed to go through that process without your help. I'm not trying to critisize you, I'm just trying to help you see that YOU share some responsibilty here too. The sooner your realize that, and accept that, the sooner you'll heal and grow, the sooner you might be able to ressurect something here.

Now I'm gonna bug out because I've already infringed too much on your thread. Just let my posts sit in the back of your mind and don't give them too much emphasis right now. Some day they might help.

Love,

COG