Broke the rules, called my H Thursday night after I posted this. I cried, told him how sorry I was (again), I said a lot of things. At one point he told me I needed to stop being so hard on myself and feeling guilty about what I'd done. He also said he did something he said he'd never do (have an A), I said I said I'd never do it either. I didn't ask him to reconcile but I did say that we could do this b/c we were meant to be together, he did't say anything back to that. I said I would hang up b/c I didn't want to bug him anymore and we said goodbye. I sent him a text last night b/c he was on his way back from his parents and it was raining pretty bad. I told him to be careful and he sent back a text saying thank you. He seems to be softening to me but I don't know if this is just to help his own feelings of guilt. I know he still talks to OW and I believe they say ILY, but he told me he doesn't believe he can get remarried ever (religious reasons). The OW feels the same way so I think they plan on dating each other but not getting married. I've got to detach more, I'm driving myself crazy.
