You know -- we had this thing I'd started a while back ... notebooks that we wrote letters to each other in. They also trailed off last summer. I got new notebooks...same thing.

He's chosen to leave every letter, etc. that I wrote - before and after the bomb so I'm keeping them here. He obviously doens't want them, or wants to be happy in denial-land. They're now all put up in a box. Rings are in a firesafe box along with other wedding day articles....garter, pearls...... It does so make it hard to breathe.

He replied to a text this morning saying I'm not an idiot, I'm just mad and it's understandable.

Whatever.

So now.....what? I don't know.

Jeannette - do you like this couch?


....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am
I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon
~ Avril Lavigne ~
..."Nobody's Fool"...

me=ok /D'd since 7/07
D=ok