Literally felt like I was going insane yesterday. I don't get enough alone time and even after the boys go to bed, I'm either exhausted or still have things to do around the house. It's neverending.
Oh well, feeling better today. The hotel H booked us in fell through -- they actually were booked so we've booked at another one. Very expensive, but I think it's worth it. It's getting so close neither one of us can barely stand it.
I think I'm done w/ R talks for awhile now. I know that he knows how I feel and how the whole sitch hurt me. I have all the details I need or want regarding OW. I'm not worried about her anymore and I'm not worried about whether H is going to cheat again. I need to just move on from here. I know I will have days & times where the entire sitch may bother me, but I need to just start moving forward. H wants ME and our M and that is what matters now. I have healed quite a bit from the whole sitch and I know the best healing will come from me just being positive and so very thankful that we are where we are now and that it will just continue to get better.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
