jack, I think I bought into the notion that by being me again, gal and all that, that H would suddenly remember the person he fell in love with. but what I'm starting to finally realize is that he has such blinders on, is in such a thick fog, that he isn't going to see it no matter what I do. He isn't. he doesn't see anything but the bad, even now. I understand why he is doing it (helps justify his own actions and such), but it still hurts, and I honestly don't see it changing.
I thought I was doing pretty good here. Meeting my goals, acting as if, spending time together laughing, down time, making our home the safe haven. Then each night he is back with her and the all the lies. He will still talk to me as if I did something horrible. I asked why he was so mad. He actually sneered at me and siad something sarcastic like, "And you are so sweet?" I stopped and really looked him in the eye and asked, "Is this how you really, truly see me now?" Then he slammed the door on me. Bye.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
