ok now I know what a locked thread is, lol. Went to go update my thread and there was no reply button so here is a new thread.
Update:
Not alot going on really, things still the same. H took the baby yesterday so I could work, then met me in the parking lot at work (we work at the same place) since we started, ended our shifts at the same time.
He came and took three of the kids to school this morning so I could take our daughter to the dentist, then had the baby all day. I picked up the kids from school and he just left with all of them until tomorrow afternoon.
he is going to take them to a carnival that they are having tomorrow, asked him if he wanted me to meet him there, he said he didn't think it was a good idea we be there at the same time. Whatever? So obviously he has a problem with us being together in public, I think he thinks it will confuse the the kids or get their hopes up or something wierd? I am not going to argue with him, I just told him to let me know about tomorrow and walked in the house.
So now I am sitting here by myself, knowing I should GAL but I really have nothing to do, and I have no desire whatsoever to go out alone. I am drinking margaritas anyways, and feeling a slight buzz coming on. My girlfriend is supposed to come over tonight and join me.
UGH, this just sucks, he has moved on, and I need to, but I spent the last 12 years devoted to him and my kids and now I have no life!!
(((HUGS))) I'm so sorry. its really hard when the kids are with H. I cry each and every time they first leave. but GAL is helping some. doesn't stop the initial cry, but then I get busy and actually enjoy the me time.
hope your girlfriend gets there soon. try to have a good night, in spite of it all. mmm...margaritas.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
I had fun last night, drank a little to much, and feeling it today. Have to meet H at the carnival in about 45 minutes as he has to go to work, then I will hang with the kids there and get my son his soccer pictures.
Did some GAL'ing today. Went to church with the kids this morning, the message was about LOT and Sadam and Gomora, really interesting, kept thinking H really should be there to listen. It really got me thinking.
H picked the kids up half an hour late from the house, had them waiting out front and ready to go (as per his request), so no chance to even come in the house. That is my new MO, going to just try to limit any contact I have with him period, not letting him come in the house, definetily not in MY bedroom, be mysterious. When he got here, I acted like I was in a hurry, he said, Oh are you going somewhere? I said yes. He didn't ask, but if he did I was just going to say out. He is not at the point to care now I guess, or he is just good at acting like he doesn't? I didn't really have anywhere to be but I wanted to make it look like I had something important to do.
We both pulled out at the same time, I was right behind him on the freeway, and I know he saw me, then I drove past his exit and headed into town. So maybe he wondered?
What did I do? Turned right back around, by the house, went and got a well deserved pedicure in a comfy massage chair. Then went shopping for girly stuff, clothes, lip gloss. Now I am home, relaxing with no kids for three more hours. Gonna tackle some laundry and watch some mindless tv.
Thanks lwb. I hope he noticed. Doesn't matter, every time I look down and see my freshly polished red toe nails I smile that I did something for myself today.
That is an awesome way to get a life! I love to go to Long's Pharmacy and see what beuty products are half off. I know it is not Rodeo Drive but it makes me feel good to pick out a new lip gloss or hair spray. Funny but lipstick does make one feel better.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
love it! love it love it love it!!! good for you! you are my new hero. I love it all. and isn't a pedicure the nicest thing in the world???? I love it better than just about anything. you just enjoy those pretty toes.
I know exactly what you mean, btw, about limiting access/creating mystery. my h, for all intents and purposes, is LIVING with another woman right now. but when he comes to get the kids/spend time with them, he acts like he still lives here. at first it was okay, now I'm starting to get weirded out when he simply opens the fridge and helps himself to stuff. but especially when he takes the kids up to play in my room. he has no more claim on that room, not now anyway. nothing he owns is even in that room anymore. well, a few books, but nothing else.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
