jack, I think I bought into the notion that by being me again, gal and all that, that H would suddenly remember the person he fell in love with. but what I'm starting to finally realize is that he has such blinders on, is in such a thick fog, that he isn't going to see it no matter what I do. he isn't. he doesn't see anything but the bad, even now. I understand why he is doing it (helps justify his own actions and such), but it still hurts, and I honestly don't see it changing.
so I need to take him out of the equation. I need to GAL and be ME again for myself. but its still so hard to let him go. its pathetic, but its hard. I'm a cockeyed optimist in a lot of ways, I want to believe in people, especially him, and its killing me to admit that I am wrong.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
