There and Back, #2

[StupidRomeo2]

{{{morgan}}}

I feel your pain. I understand every emotion you're going through. I've felt it all over and over again. I too have questioned why I can't just let her go when she's rejected me a million times, has done things to me that are close to irreversible. Why do I think of her as a friend still? Why do I want to reach out and hug her when I see her, why does she look the sexiest woman to me? I don't know really but if I'm to believe my close friend who went through a divorce I should have a girlfriend and pretty soon my ex won't matter to me, will even help me having a friendlier relationship with her.

Perhaps he's right, but to think that I wasted 6+ years, the dreams I built with this woman, the trust I placed in her, my daughter who's life will be so different now and nothing she or I could do about it it just kills me inside. So naiive of me to always believe her, there were signs which I completely ignored. Almost as if she had a plan and I was just a pit-stop in her life.

Anyway, I hope you find strength to face this and I know you will because we'll be the better ones and take it head on. We didn't want this but we'll hold our grounds and fight this.

I like to believe there's a special person out there for each one of us that'll appreciate our qualities...my ex is clearly not that person and I have to start accepting that.