One day a while back, a man, his heart heavy with grief, was walking in the woods. As he thought about his life this day, he knew many things were not right. He thought about those who had lied about him back when he had a job. His thoughts turned to those who had stolen his things and cheated him. He remembered family that had passed on. His mind turned to the illness he had that no one could cure. His very soul was filled with anger, resentment and frustration.
Standing there this day, searching for answers he could not find, knowing all els! e had failed him, he knelt at the base of an old oak tree to seek the one he knew would always be there. And with tears in his eyes, he prayed:
"Lord- You have done wonderful things for me in this life. You have told me to do many things for you, and I happily obeyed. Today, you have told me to forgive. I am sad, Lord, because I cannot. I don't know how. It is not fair Lord. I didn't deserve these wrongs that were done against me and I shouldn't have to forgive. As perfect as your way is Lord, this one thing I cannot do, for I don't know how to forgive. My anger is so deep Lord, I fear I may not hear you, but I pray that you teach me to do this one thing I cannot do - Teach me To Forgive." As he knelt there in the quiet shade of that old oak tree, he felt something fall onto his shoulder. He opened his eyes. Out of the corner of one eye, he saw something red on his shirt.
He could not turn to see what it was because where the oak! tree had been was a large square piece of wood in the ground. He rais ed his head and saw two feet held to the wood with a large spike through them.
He raised his head more, and tears came to his eyes as he saw Jesus hanging on a cross. He saw spikes in His hands, a gash in His side, a torn and battered body, deep thorns sunk into His head. Finally he saw the suffering and pain on His precious face. As their eyes met, the man's tears turned to sobbing, and Jesus began to speak. "Have you ever told a lie?" He asked? The man answered - "yes, Lord." "Have you ever been given too much change and kept it?" The man answered - " yes. Lord." And the man sobbed more and more. "Have you ever taken something from work that wasn't yours?" Jesus asked? And the man answered - "yes, Lord." "Have you ever sworn, using my Father's name in vain? " The man, crying now, answered - "yes, Lord." As Jesus asked many more times, "Have you ever"? The man's crying became uncontrollable, for he could only answer - "yes, Lord."!
Then Jesus turned His head from one side to the other, and the man felt something fall on his other shoulder. He looked and saw that it was the blood of Jesus. When he looked back up, his eyes met those of Jesus, and there was a look of love the man had never seen or known before.
Jesus said, "I didn't deserve this either, but I forgive you." It may be hard to see how you're going to get through something, but when you look back in life, you realize how true this statement is.
Read the following first line slowly and let it sink in.
If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it. When Jesus died on the cross, he was thinking of you!
Me 48 X's vary S 27 S 18 Back with high school sweety after 30 years..
Something different, maybe understanding our spouses is this easy.
cire
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Me 48 X's vary S 27 S 18 Back with high school sweety after 30 years..
Something different, maybe understanding our spouses is this easy.
I think that understanding our spouse would be a h*ll of a lot easier if we would not try to see them through our perspective and try to put ourselves into their shoes. They are struggling with this whole situation just as we are. But, it is easy to feel the victim and say oh if only they would pull their heads out.
“Do you want to be RIGHT or want to be LOVED” “You have to have a life to share a life with someone” “When you stop resisting, you start learning”
According to the judge at the hearing on TRO, she was to drop off my belongings at my parents house sat. She didn't and never called. Our M is over and you'd think she would want to get rid of all my things quickly considering she took out the order.
I have moved on in mind and body but my spirit is filled with hope and faith. For some reason I have a calm peace about all of this. Quite honestly I have no choice, it's out of my control, for at least a year.
Having gone through multiple loves, this will be a first in a stand in faith and understanding. I have always given up and given in to my emotions. With the results being the same/ I always come back to loving them and still do.
Something has happended within me, and like the old lady said to me at the nursing home, "it'll happen". What?, I don't know, but i'll be waiting....
cire
Me 48 X's vary S 27 S 18 Back with high school sweety after 30 years..
cire2...hang on..and thanks for all your support. Spend time on YOU now and start to try and enjoy those things you did 'before'. Be careful and try not to let her find a reason to nail you on that RO...keep clear.
Strength and honor. FIB
Me 55; XW 47; 2 kids (S13, D11) Bomb 05/19/06 Original thread http://tinyurl.com/yg2ou2t Last anniversary 04/25/10, Divorced 5/12/10 Status: Loving father of 2 beautiful children;
Like the fly on the wheel, who says, "What a lot of dust we're raising." Are you under the illusion That you're part of this scheme? Seems like a lifetime ago You could look with pride On your world of dreams
What is the meaning of this`? And the stars look down What are you trying to do? And the stars look down Was it something I said And the stars look down
Like the rat in a maze who says "Watch me choose my own direction." Are you under the illusion The path is winding your way? Are you surprised by confusion When it leads you astray? Have you lived a lifetime today - Or do you feel like you just got carried away?
What is the meaning of this? And the stars look down What are you trying to do? And the stars look down Was it something I said? And the stars look down Something you'd like me to do? And the stars look down
Me 48 X's vary S 27 S 18 Back with high school sweety after 30 years..
Once there were three trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the first tree said, "Someday I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems. I could be decorated with intricate carving and everyone would see the beauty."
Then the second tree said, "Someday I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of the world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull."
Finally the third tree said, "I want to grow to be the tallest and straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time and people will always remember me."
After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees. When one came to the first tree he said, "This looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter" ... and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest.
At the second tree a woodsman said, "This looks like a strong tree, I should be able to sell it to the shipyard." The second tree was happy because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship.
When the woodsmen came upon the third tree, the tree was frightened because he knew that if they cut him down his dreams would not come true. One of the woodsmen said, "I don't need anything special from my tree so I'll take this one", and he cut it down.
When the first tree arrived at the carpenters, he was made into a feed box for animals. He was then placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for. The second tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end. The third tree was cut into large pieces and left alone in the dark. The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams.
Then one day, a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time. Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and he stood and said "Peace" and the storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the King of Kings in its boat.
Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets as the people mocked the man who was carrying it. When they came to a stop, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as was possible, because Jesus had been crucified on it.
The moral of this story is that when things don't seem to be going your way, always know that God has a plan for you. If you place your trust in Him, He will give you great gifts. Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined. We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best.
Me 48 X's vary S 27 S 18 Back with high school sweety after 30 years..
Doing some thinking about all i've read, posted and thought about in the past few days.
There is so much of our lives that get wrapped up in our emotions for the "moment". I really believe this is ultimately unhealthy.
If it isn't a knee jerk reaction, (which is usually not beneficial), then it is a recoil into our own self. We dwell and analyze to death.
This is most noticable with R's but it can be in our everyday life. We can get paralyzed in our work, our lack of work, our family, friends, or even interaction with strangers.
What seems to work for people is a kind of muscle memory. Where our responses are not thought out but come from habit about being satisfied in our own skin.
I am no different from anyone going through this life, and I have been fighting my own inner demons as of late. The sharp pain seems to have given way to the dull ache and it has become all consuming in thought. Like the constant drip of a faucet.
I'm not sure how to do it yet, so I will keep moving forward and try to keep my focus on what's in front of me.
My life...a blessing in disguise!
cire
Me 48 X's vary S 27 S 18 Back with high school sweety after 30 years..
Sorry I don't have any uplifting stories to post lately, haven't seen any new ones.
I've posted on some other threads some opinions of mine concerning why, how, or what to do. I only have my experience, morality and integrity to go by. This doesn't always fit in with everyones perspective. It is however, just perceived until one understands my intent. To be helpful if I can is all I try.
With these interactions I hope to also learn. My sitch is grave and yet I still have a faint resolve left in me that just maybe...
Sad isn't it? I should have a tatoo on my forhead that reads "SAP". My XW finally called my parents concerning my belongings and dropping them off because of RO. Just some excuses about not having a truck. My dad offered his truck numerous times, just more excuses. She did say she was sorry it came to this and they were "drug into this". It was her idea to bring them into it! F... wth!
(shaking head) I am just so tired, I need to move again and haven't found a place so I have to ask landlord for another month. I doubt he'll go for it as I think he has a renter.
My reality is becoming painfully clear. I hurt at what i've lost and this pattern of failed loves. Can some just be destined for flings and flighty romances like bees to flowers? I am down and feel this way now.
Just confirmed, have to be out now. I have no place to go, crap.
For everyone here I pray that all becomes right again!!
cire
Me 48 X's vary S 27 S 18 Back with high school sweety after 30 years..
