it does get better my friend. After 9months of really knowing in my heart that my W was having a ea/pa... I finally nailed her on a whim, I did a drive by after my sons volunteered some information that she was recieving phone calls all through the night while they were on vacation with her and ILs last week. There she was 8 am, motor on car was cold,,, stayed over all night. Point is after 9 months of accusations, and intutions I was right.. I could never figure out her actions, every single person on this board could point to a ea/pa,, I had the EA nailed.. this am confirmed PA,....Same person.. Now I can move on.. case closed. no more fighting with myself about what I see/hear and feel vs the words of denial from her (+him). My friend said to me last week, if it looks like a duck, walks like a duck and quacks like a duck.. it a F...king duck.. dont let her tell you otherwise.
GAL/act as if and take care of you and your childern.. I dont want to jump the gun but there is no way she coming back without completly going through this on her own time schedule.
I can tell you without reservation, it does get better.. I actually feel relieved.. a weight of indecison has been lifted and I am truly free to pursue my life's goal without regard to her.