honestly, I don't pray enough anymore. not sure why. I don't know that it will help at this point. can't even remember the last time I went to church, other than when I lit a candle in st. patricks over memorial day weekend. sounds like I'm giving up on god, which I'm not. trust me, I implore him for strength often.
what i do know is that I am getting tired of self help books. I have so many at this point...db/dr, deep river within, 2 on helping kids deal with divorce, crucial conversations, and a few other random ones. I'm burning out, and starting to feel like charlotte on sex and the city (anyone remember the episode with, "starting over, yet again?").
sorry, I'm just bitter today.
It's understandable that your sick of self help books. My main goal in getting the prayer type books was for some specific guidance. I don't go to church and I am not sure I have been praying for the right thing.
I feel as if I have been stuck in a 'negative feedback' loop. This year, so far, has been hell. And not just maritally. I am still sad that my daughter gave up her baby, but I know it was the right thing to do. Selling our rental (first home) was a very expensive and an emotional strain. Watching my real estate business dwindle has created a lot fear. And now this thing with H.
Well, I know there isn't anything in particular that I can say that would make you feel better; but do know that I am watching your thread.
Me-43 H-46 M 12 yrs 7/09 T 15 2 grown kids bomb 7/05/07 H moved out 8/04/07 11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing
