thanks lwb. I'm sort of calmer, sort of not. fired off 2 e-mails to H (I know, not good) and have been sorting/going thru more stuff. just cathartic. and did I mention I'm potty training twins at the same time? yep, fun filled week here.
agent99, will check out your post.
I also finally started the book my therapist lent me. I'll admit, my heart isn't in it, but I can see how it is a good book. if any of you are looking for a good one, its called, finding the deep river within
will continue it later after the kids are in bed, but I did manage to read the first chapter or 2.
just...sad. sad that this is how it ends. sad that it is ending at all. sad that so many other people, certainly the people at the lake, knew what was really going on before I did. silly me, I guess I expected more...I still see him as my best friend, and as such, I expect to be treated with more respect. guess I need to remember this is no longer the case.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
