thanks, all. I've been packing stuff away (including my rings) and am trying to concentrate on the positives in my life. I've spent too much time thinking of the positives in OUR life. big difference. I need to move forward. I'm just so scared...I'm a sahm, and that makes a big difference. yes, there will be child support, and likely some form of alimony, at least for a while (judge's discretion). but I know, at 40, I'm going to have to come up with a career. I've been so focused on the future we planned together, that to have that rug ripped out from under me just freaks me out/scares me to death.
this is not what I wanted, not what I expected in life. but it is what is, and I need to accept it. I need to move on. I need to truly GAL. I need to find that magic elixir that allows me to finally stop caring for him. guessing its probably just time, but wondering if I make out the list of the things he has done/said in the last 6-10 months, it would probably help.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
