Frustrated and More Saddened #3

[stewart10]

Okay. Feeling pretty down. Friend of ours from college called last night to wish happy anniversary. He knows vaguely what is going on. Well, while he was talking with her last night, he asked her if things were getting better. She said no. I'd like to chalk that up to alien spew, you know believe nothing of what they say. Maybe she doesn't want to give me false hope. He was one of my closest friends in college and still is. She knows he was going to turn around and tell me whatever she said. I don't know. It seems like things are just not going to get better.

Going back to Friday night and the no calling issue (again), she came home Saturday morning about 8:00 am. She said that she was on the couch one minute at her friends house and the next she woke up in the morning. That is twice this week that she did not call when she said she would. And she told me she would be coming home on Friday night and she didn't. Just seems that she could care less at this point.

I suspect more than ever that there is another person involved. I think I need to have some sort of confirmation one way or another on that. I cannot keep thinking that she is trying and this may work out if she is with someone else. If that is the case, then I really need to rethink what I am doing.

Yesterday we went to my parents' house for a barbecue (she slept until after 2 pm-I went out and played golf to get out of the house, otherwise I would have gone crazy). My mother had a cake for our anniversary. Things were okay. We got home about 10 last night and she immediately went into the bedroom to sleep. She is still in bed now. Maybe if she was not out until all hours of the night Friday, she would have a little more energy right now.

I feel like I have had enough of this. Her actions lately have displayed to me that she has little if any respect for me. That is something that I cannot deal with. I think I need to take some power back. Maybe set some boundaries. Her mother thinks I am giving too much. That W is able to basically have things both ways. She has the stability of a home life when she wants it, can purchase anything that she desires, and also has the ability to basically go out and act like a teenager with no responsibility for her actions and no accountability.

I am at a loss.