I need everyone's advice again. After yesterday, I think I need to send one more email to H. Do you think this is a bad idea? He continues to pull me back into this mess and I need to let him know that I am not willing to be a part of this anymore. I need to do this for closure.
XXXX, This is it. In one week, our relationship will be over and along with that goes all our broken dreams. I’ve accepted it…you don’t want to be with me. I am trying to move on with my life and every time I do, you seem to give some kind of hope and I get pulled back onto this rollercoaster ride that I’ve been living on for the last 10 months. I can’t do this anymore. I need you to let me go. You have made your choice to be with OW and I cannot be involved in this anymore. You have decided that her or your pride or something is more important than me. You made your choice and we will both live the rest of our lives with it. I have tried my damnest to keep things civil between us, but sometimes you make it so hard on me with the way you disrespect me and our marriage. I am human and I can only put up with so much. I am dealing with your choices the best that I can, but I would appreciate if you would have enough respect for me to not put the relationship that destroyed ours right in front of me. I still love you more than you will ever know. I care about you, but this is what you wanted. I want to help you so bad, but I can’t do it if you won’t let me back in to your life. I thought maybe just maybe you wanted to talk to me one last time before we met in the court room on the 28th. I guess that is just me once again finding the glimmer of hope. I thought maybe you thought things through and you wanted to try to work things out with me. This is never what I wanted and you know that. I wanted to try to save our marriage, but unless you are willing to do something, please let me go, so I can move on with my life.
