Maybe it is time for an update. But there is nothing to update really. Been over 100 degrees each day for the past two weeks. Uggg.
I am busy at work and that keeps my mind off things. But just below the surface I still feel wounded and stuck. A good friend sent me this:
"Hey my friend....
Been thinking about you a lot this past week as I crossed a series of "milestones"....something I've realized, Jeff, is that it's okay to feel "hurt"....to feel that longing for "validation" and recognition that we ARE working our asses off in a horrible situation....we feel so ashamed over everything - and even moreso that we're still feeling instead of running around all happy happy happy like the books all say we "should".
Bottom line - it hurts. Deeply. And we're allowed to feel it.
And I too have problems "letting go"....I'm not sure it's xW I want as much as being married - as having my identity back as a man, father, husband - that is what was taken away from us - and when our ex wives refuse to even give us the slightest bit of acknowledgement, it hurts all the worse - and it is OKAY that we feel this....."
That is how I feel. My life has been ripped from me and it hurts.
