I too can relate to seeing a man so broken and crumbled that it almost hurt me more to see that then when he left...I never wanted that for him either...that is when I saw in reverse what drove him out of the house...and now the opposite force was driving him back in...
Like others mentioned my H vacilated between anger at me, the world, our elders, himself...but I knew mostly he was still trying to run from himself inside...and it was about to come to a head...the drinking could only numb for so long...the medicating with prescription drugs (or should I say over medicating with Rx that weren't his!) could only numb for so long...eventually they have to look at that man in the mirror and they realize that it is who they hate...not us
Even with all of that it still took a year before my H could say the words "I love you" to me...it is long and very bumpy road when they return...much like when they left...there will be times that you may even question your judgement in allowing it...times you may feel this will "never work"....but I can tell you that is all normal...just keep praying for yourself to find the truth of what you need to know and the strength to carry it through...you never who will knock at your door...
