A bad day today....H talking in his sleep as I tried to wake him for work....called me the OW name......says he never thinks of her...has no desire to be with her...but this was a big slap in the face for me...what do I say to that? How do I deal with that...that is the first time I have heard him say her name....It felt like a dagger through my heart...just as things seemed to be going so well...WHAM!!!!Do I cry ...or do I scream...or how about both? AAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWGGGGGGHHHHH!!!! I HATE these feelings.....hurt, betrayal, lonliness, saddness, heart break....this is supposed to be the man of my dreams...not the man who shatters them.....He was the one who promised to love me through it all... to grow old with me....I have this strong urge to go hunt down this woman and see just what it is about her to make the man I love turn his back on me....to toally disregard my feelings for her.....what does she have that I didn't????? To make matters worse my ex is trying to take custody of my three kids!!!!Feel like my whole world is trying to crash down around me.....the weight is getting pretty darn heavy on these weak shoulders.....feel like I am about to crumble.......but don't know how to let it go....really rough day today....:(
M 35 H 44 D 21,D 18,D 17, D 15, D 13, D 11, D 10, S 9 BOMB DROPPED 7/16/07 STILL TOGETHER, TRYING TO WORK IT OUT H ENDED A WITH Ow 7/15/07
