I was on my knees begging...and you know the rest.

[MissingMyHoney]

bar, I tried to leave the room W follows me and when I tried to leave the apt, she took my keys away - LOL. So true, when she is calm she is so different as I stated in my previous post.

I wont tell her anything about that job. BTW, a few of my 'online' friends are from the UK. I would like to take a trip there some time but is pondering where to go and how much to spend.

Probably looking to stay somewhere in B'ham. Or simply rent a small cottage for a 2 week vacation.

[bar]

There's loads of holiday stuff online as you know. I don't think the dollar is as strong as it was; suggest you bring your plastic. We're having one of the worst summer's ever with plenty of rain.
Why Birmingham?


bar

[chicki]

Yes, dont tell her esp she will see $ signs she will think "hey I will have all this $ when we D!"

OR better yet, how much $ did you say? How about marrying me instead? HA HA HA

[MissingMyHoney]

LMAOOOOOOO, for real, W said she wants to break me and she knows each time I change job, the pay gets better.

[MissingMyHoney]

Lastnight, W was sitting on the couch with me and my coworker called but I had my cell phone on vibrate. W felt the vibration and made a remark. I had planned to go out earlier with my coworker and I told him I probably would be late. He called at 9:30 and then showed up at the door - LOL.

W went to see who was at the door and she said if I was expecting him, I didnt replied and went outside to talk to him. He asked if I was still going out and if W knows I was. I told him I will still go, I put on my tennis shoe and told W I will be back.

W said if I am drinking to not come home and come home in the morning when I am a bit sober. We drove separate cars and went out. My coworker is also having M difficulties. Later, he told me his W got his arrested too. I had to LOL since I did the same thing to my W a few weeks ago.

My friend had invited some women for the night and I joined them, nothing wrong but I kept my boundaries. I didnt had anything to drink. We all ate at Pujols, pretty nice choice in a happening area. The women ate dinner and had some margaritas. I chose cokes - GREAT!!!

We then went to an African restaurant and bar that has a small night club. While there, I got into it since I do like reggae a lot! I never had so much fun being sober. That was a great experience for me. W didnt call me at all and I didnt call her either.

I came home at 3:00 AM, I spoke with one of the women who also is having M difficulties and she recently got M. We had a long talk and then I shook her hand and left to go home. This is the first time Ive been with someone different and I treated her with so much respect - not as if I was looking for p****.

I wanted to wake up W so she can see that Im sober but I decide not to since I didnt had to proove her wrong.

This morning I had a doctors appt and I went to it. W had to go to her class orientation so I got back in time for her to leave. D was being grumpy since she wanted to go Bye Bye. I told W I will take D for a ride then so she cant be so grumpy.

W said well take her to the class orientation and pick her up afterwards. I am like - hell yeah I will. W asked if I was drinking last night and I said I didnt drank anything and had nothing but cokes. I told her she can smell my breathe and last night when I returned home I wanted to awake her.

W was a little critical about this but it was more of disbelief that I went out and stayed sober. This was a great experience for me since now I am sure I can go out to sports bar and such while still having fun being sober. I am happy to have done so.

[bar]

You did really well to stay sober and you surprised her too. That's good. Not sure about calling her grumpy even if your intention was to give her time out.

keep posting, bar

[MissingMyHoney]

W didnt take my going out quite well. In her response, she said I cannot stop her from f****** someone else now since I can simply just take off. W said she may even go see EA for an entire weekend. Later, W said of my company would relocate me back to Houston, she will tag along. So I said I dont mind going to Florida, Georgia, Illinios or California. I need to stay away from Houston thats for sure. W asked if I was gonna go out tonight and I said no but I needed so alone time.

W is pissed. Is this the way it should be? I am totally confused now.

[chicki]

This si the same response I got from my h when i satrt to GAL w/ out him. Is she the jelouse type? OR if she wasn't before she might be wondering what your up to now. Remember w/ part of thier guilt comes paranoia that we LBS might do the same,but dont let that discourage you. This si part for the par that you show her you CAN live w/out her if needed be and that her R w/ OM will not put a hold on your daily living.

When my H was around more before and actually SAW me GALng he was very curious and started coming around more and w/ tons of questions suddenly he was interested. They do start to scare if you will leave them. This si when my H had his first break down and said his first ILYs in a lo0ng time!!! Dont let her threats SCARE you into stoping the GAl, like my H did to me until he was convinced I was indeed not seeing anyone, so he stoped being intersted. Now I am uping my moves once more.

[bar]

I have come to accept that confusion is normal and that I continue with my plan regardless.

chicki: what are you going to do to up your moves?

bar

[MissingMyHoney]

Jealous is an under statement, W had shown that throughout the R. W said the EAs I have talked to can become real and therefore she ended all those EA R that I was having rather quickly.

One time, it rained so hard it took me almost 2 hrs to get home which normally is only 45 mins. W was convinced that I was having a fine time with OW. WTF! Again, I told her I have NOT been with another woman and I elaborated this again this morning. I told her I may even put off the Chicago trip if shes thinking crazy, I wanted to do this trip for my family to get away from the home.

W said she isnt having an R with me and can do whatever she feels like. Im like hell I am your goddamn H and until we are D, I am still responsible for you. I didnt tell her this I said it mentally - LOL.

W seem pleasant at the moment since she is already overwhelmed by her online classes. W knows she can count on me for educational support, another plus I have over EA. EA isnt into advancing his career as compared to me and has never taken any iniciative to do better - kinda like a lifer in his career. To me, changing jobs means you are being competitive with the career market. Thank God for 401k, you can roll over monies from company to company. So the days of working 25 yrs for one company are over.

Im watching Fracture the movie and staying in since its raining like crazy. Rain is love making weather but how can this be accomplished when W isnt letting anything go eventhough I always undress and dress infront of her.