Thanks, A99 for your kind words and encouragement. Yes, I do enjoy helping people, and it feels kind of wierd to be on the opposite side for such a serious matter. I will look to some key people to talk to beside the minister. That hasn't gone quite the way I expected, but God works in mysterious ways...
MyWife... I will check out those websites. I too think I need a different lawyer, the challenge is coming up with another retainer, while I'm looking to get a permanent place I cna furnish for me and (hopefully) the boys, if and when they are with me. Maybe with talking to a few more people, I can get a decent referral that is also affordable.
I guess I need to stop hating myself and get out of this funk I'm in, so I can see myself in better place. Won't be any good to the kids if I'm looking feeling defeated, deflated and a mess.