Trudging up hill

[ediemarie]

Thanks Ladies - I appreciate the support...it means tons to me!

He hasn't placed the call yet. I don't know what he's waiting for. It is at times like these that I truly believe he says stuff just to make me happy/shut me up and not because he really means it. It wreaks havoc on any level of trust that is trying to push itself up through the dead earth of our R.

Somehow I'm not speaking his language. He just isn't hearing me. Or maybe he is hearing me and doesn't care to hear what I'm saying? I don't know...its just frustrating. I think I just need to let it go. It's one of those things that I have no control over. Recognizing it as that helps. I'm done bringing it up. If he doesn't want to try and improve our m there isn't anything I can do to force him to.

Em