Separated from WAW

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A fun filled Friday night by myself. Could have hung with BF his W and baby. Not really feeling like it though. Was hoping to get out a bit. Realized I have 2 single friends. One is a cop and he works crazy shifts. Though he is making it to my cookout Sunday, so very happy about that. The other is the girl I was worried about my feelings for. I got that in check, was just feeling good about the attention. She really is a great person to hang out with, and a good way to meet others. Anyway, her bro is in town, so having a family night.
That leaves me here. Don;t feel like calling my out of town friends. Not up for all the talk I guess. Just read over CHRISG's success story. First one I've read that I felt a connection to.
Well, my mom spoke with MIL again. MIL said she talked to W, but ended with W hanging up on her. Great! Just what I need! W keptsaying I'm 30 yrs old, I can make my own decisons. MIL pressed that she is older and wiser, blah blah. Pushed W to take more time.
Mil told my mom about W's horse and how close she was, and how extremely depressed she was when he died. W had mentioned meon Sun that when she tells people sbout having a horse and it died, hey typically say, "That must have been a hard time." They never ask more, including me, and no one understands how much it hurt and still hurts 10 yrs later. I wish Ihad asked, but really had no inkling from her that it was such a big issue. I think she carries it with her, just one more part of the explanation of her behavior. I want to brig it up, but can't think of any good away to do it that she doesn't suspect. Her 'office' at home is the horse room though. She has all her ribbons, medals, pix, etc and wants to decorate it all nice with that stuff. It just all sits in boxes though. I may ask or mention soomething about when she thinks she'll get to that. Not sure, it would have to be the perfect time and all that. I have time though, does not have to be tomorrow. I just feel so bad for her more than ever. MIL thinks W has not been sleeping very well. I want her to be OK. She has a ways to go with C. So worried for her.
W has not called about a time for tomorrow! Guessing she'll call near noon or so. Deciding if I should take me desk. Could use it here so as to not infringe on roomie's comp area. But, not necessary by any means. Would this get me closer or farther from my goal? Hmmmmmm...could show her I'm prepared to move on. Could show her she was right and that I can walk away and never look back. BAd sounds worse than good here. Think the desk will stay for now.
Going to see what's on the tube. (my luck all Lifetime movies) Kleenex anyone?