Do I want him back?

[forward]

Mkulta, I am not sure about OW but I suspect that at one point she had nowhere to live. See, H gets to be protector and feel good about himself and has an adoring little groupie. I cannot be like that. I am a woman and while I can admire H, I am not a Girl Child. If he needs a girl child, I am not the person.

That is why I say I feel sorry for her; it was wrong of H to take advantage of her situation. She is mentally ill and desperate and while he thinks he's her protector, the reality is that they are just using each other AND it's a control problem on his part. He gets to control her.

Snooping today yielded that H has a doctor appointment and calls to pharmacy. I handed him an insurance bill on his way out (I did not have to pay it--woo-hoo.) He tried to tell me we should split it and I said "Well, it's the same cost on my car." Said if he took me off it it would be a reduced rate, and I said "Probably only if you have a legal separation." Actually it's stressed me out that he may want to teach OW to drive so it has been very stressful to consider if I should file LS over this.

Told him baby and I would be busy and gone tomorrow--H was curious but I tell him nothing.