GD,

1. No. Wait . . . hell no.

2. There's a huge element of truth in your observation and it's something I realized a few weeks ago (well, it's something I've known all along). It's one of the things that I regret, because for a while, I was purposefully not doing things to tick her off. Not huge things, but you know, just stupid, chickenshit stuff.

3. That's why I ran the dishwasher. It was about 95% full when I ran it after breakfast. The dishes in the sink were from lunch. Just hadn't had a chance to get up and unload the dishwasher, which I do more than 50% of the time. Been making a huge effort over the last 18 months to be better about stuff like. And honestly have.

4. Going to be hard to do acts of service for her. Right now, when I do stuff for her, she thinks it's manipulative. When we separate, goign to have to think long and hard about that. Primarily, I'm going to make a huge effort to keep my apt. straight. I'm not dirty or a slob exactly, but I tend to clutter. Sortof like a clean Pigpen from Peanuts.

Off to my private dancer, the lovely and talented Jacenta. Woo hoo. Maybe I'll figure out that hip shimmy thing for the salsa. Or hurt myself, one of the two.

BD


My latest

Me: 36
W: 35
2 D: 9 and 5
T: 16 years
M: 12
10/4/06: Bomb
10/5/06: Ended A
4/22/07: ILYBNILWY

I'm a beautiful butterfly.