Trust me, I think you would end up feeling like complete sh*t if you did. You would end up feeling really stupid for allowing yourself to even stoop to her level. She isn't worth the time you are spending dwelling on her. You are giving her POWER over you and your thoughts, emotions & actions. She's not worth it.

Sometimes I would just tell myself if H wanted someone who would mess around w/ a married man like that, then he deserves her and so be it. I don't want him.

Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10