There and Back, #2

[SallyM]

thanks, all. we should feel admirable...but boy, did we get the short end of the stick. at least thats how it feels sometimes.

mk, your post made me so sad. it was beautiful and heartbreaking all at once. just remember, don't let him dictate your life, okay? you decide. don't let him take napa from you. but hopefully not something you have to even think of for a very long time. I do get it, though. we got married in october in new england. I've lived many places, but have never seen autumn like it is here...truly amazing. I associate a lot of things about the season with H, but I'm not going to let him take it away from me. I'm going to have to carve out some new memories, sans him, for myself and for my kids.

now for today. I've been busy all day. got some useful things done, but also played a little. now I'm cleaning my ovens. well, okay, so not much to do there...hit the button, open the windows/turn on the fan on the hood, and well, wait. lol. kind of like laundry...I'm being useful, but not really doing anything.

good news. I had to run to the mall to exchange a pair of jeans I had ordered online. I needed the smaller size...woo-hooo! I'm happy, they're a 6. honestly, with my booty, I don't expect to see a lower number. just already noticing the ab tape paying off. yay for me. so I'm alone, at least I'll look good, right?

I'm kind of bitter right now, actually. the windows in my office are open and we have the most delicious breeze coming in. its wonderful...cool, not cold, just nice. I'm weird, I get so fired up for weather...storms, nice breezes, whatever. I just love them. and wish I had someone to share them with. grumble, grumble, whine, whine. mmmm...fantasy...sitting on the porch...nice breeze...strong arms around me...sigh.

okay, snapping out of it. must scrub floors.