Things are changing within me too, Namopo, even though you have travelled this road much longer than me. I've decided that goodbye does not have to mean forever, although I've been pretty much convinced of it up till now.
We haven't done any JC even though we talked about it on several occasions. Now I just feel there's no point. H is not going to budge from his position that the M is over, he is not going to work on the M. So, game over. I feel very sad now but I don't want to make you miserable, King of Long Posts.