A little update... Today W mentioned that she really wants to make things work but she's struggling. She says she has a hard time believing that I can just do an 180 just like. She says that she has a hard time believing that for a long time I want her to be/look like somebody that's not her and now all of sudden I just want to love/accept her for her. It seems to be impossible to make her understand that when you realize/understand something it's not hard for one to think/feel/behave differently when you love someone.
My biggest fear is that her imagination will run wild while we are in our S and she'll get herself down, go to that bad place, and convince herself that she can't get over the resentment and that my changes are just temporary. She tends to be very impatient with things. She said she'll take 30 days to evaluate things. I REALLY do not want her to go from somewhat optimistic to feeling hopeless and just quit.... Wish she would just get it that no way in hell I want to go back to the way it was just as much as her. I'm not a masochist and I'm not a malicious evil person that wants to do her harm. Why would I want to make her miserable and have both of us unhappy?
Is there nothing I can do?
M: 31 W: 31 M: 7 T: 8 S:4 D:2 Bomb dropped: too many to count or remember, 12/17/07 last one S on 9/2/07 W sent off D papers 12/31/07. Me trying to live life and hope she returns one day.
