Cog - thanks for your insight. I'll apologize in advance for the long post.
This is all just so weird.....like one of those swirly flashbacks.....
Got home from work, H was there because he watched D last night. He unloaded the dishwasher and reloaded it. (why??) but he looked so sad. I figured out last night that I've given up hope. I had hope, even with his plan. Now I have none. So I'm working on the things that need to still be split, etc. I emptied out his bathroom cabinet last night, along with the few clothes he had in the dresser and closet. I left them at the top of the stairs for him. He took them home. I have such heartburn and this stupid lump in my throat.
I remember telling him before the "plan" that if we got a divorce, he would think I didn't love him anymore because I would stop talking to him. He made me feel bad - as if I would let my pride overrule a possible reconcilliation. And now this?!
I heard this song this morning ....
Hinder - How Long?
Why'd you go and break what's already broken I try to take a breath but I'm already choking How long till this goes away I try to remember to forget you But I break down every time I do It's left me less than zero Beat down and bruised I can't see him with you Why'd you go and break what's already broken I try to take a breath but I'm already choking Cause everywhere I look I can see how you hold him How long till this goes away
I can't seem to get my heart over you Cause you creep into everything I do And now I'm dying to know How he touches you I can't see him with you Why'd you go and break what's already broken I try to take a breath but I'm already choking Cause everywhere I look I can see how you hold him How long till this goes away How long till this goes away She said she wants to be friends I took a big step back She said She said She said she's sorry With one finger I said f*** that
I can tell you're lying when your lips move Cause of one lie it's not me it's you It's left me less than zero Beat down and bruised I can't see him with you Why'd you go and break what's already broken I try to take a breath but I'm already choking Cause everywhere I look I can see how you hold him How long till this goes away Why'd you go and break what's already broken I try to take a breath but I'm already choking Cause everywhere I look I can see how you hold him How long till this goes away How long till this goes away
She said she wants to be friends I took a big step back She said She said She said she's sorry With one finger With one finger I said f*** that
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
I'll apologize in advance for the long post.
