Separated from WAW

[dlt1]

Thanks Jeanette and Will, I appreciate the new persepctive and continued support.
Update on my mental state
It really started sinking in last night (after one too many drinks natch) but more so this morning, that we will really be going through a D. I'm angry that she won't try. I'm also very disappointed in W. This is something I would not have expected to feel. She never gave me the chance to work with her. She has always given up when her R's hit the rocks. She is scared to put forth the effort required. She is scared to even think about having to put effoprt and work into an R. I thought she was smarter than that. I'm really questioning whether she is worth it. I love her, but why? Do I love the idea of W, not actually her?
On another tangent: I may have to spend a couple of nights back at the house right before Labor Day. Owner of the house I am at will be back in country and would like to sleep in his own room without having to cuddle with me! Found out we'll be getting another temp roomie for a couple months. She will fill teh last bedroom. (yeah, that's right, me and two lovely ladies all under one roof!) So, while I could hit the couch, or shack at another friend's I'm thinking why shold I have to be inconveienced more than I already am? She's the one that wants this D, and I lovingly moved out to give her space. We have a spare bed, she can deal with it however she chooses. I'm not certain on having to, depends on timing of new roomie I guess. Just found out last night she's coming, but not sure the exact date. Was going to mention the possibility to W this weekend, but think I'll wait and see what happens. Don't want her to think I'm planning/manipulating. I have another week~ish to figure it out.
And final note: I have not heard anything from W about what time to meet Sat to take care of preliminary D stuff. Not sweating it, just makes me wonder if she'll push to get it done, or take her sweet time. If I don;t hear from her, I'll call her Sat around 3 and head over to take care fo my biz. Have to get my comp and a few other items, as well as pay bills (last time?) and leave them for her to transfer into her name. I won't linger or talk about R if I'm over there on my terms. I'll tell her I have plans and can not stay very long. (not a lie since parents are coming).
So many things going through my mind, need to focus on work now.