SorryDog, you kind of pegged it for me. I would *never* want to be the person that betrayed the S. I just couldn't live with the guilt, knowing what I did.
I know H feels guilty for what he did, but at the moment he is choosing to blame me for what he did (the breakdown of our marriage). He also has said in the past: "I never thought I would be this person" and "I am an ass", things like that. Then, one minute later, he is cold as ice.
Since the shock has worn off after H told me about A, I sleep better too. But I hear H tossing and turning on the couch downstairs.
