I was on my knees begging...and you know the rest.

[MissingMyHoney]

Major set back, W computer was probably on stand-by or something. When I went into the bedroom to change my clothes I noticed it and didnt bother to shut it down. W came home and went into the bedroom and saw this. W asked if D messed with her computer and I said no. So W asked if I did messed with her computer and I said no. I elaborated that I dont have a reason to touch it but I did noticed it was on. W was getting mad so I said it would be best if I kept my work clothes on until W comes home so I can change.

w said she will be out of our place soon and that she hated me so much. W said she wished I was dead and if she had the chance to kill me she would. W said she cant stand being around me. W said that my therapist are feeding me BS and I told her they dont tell me what to do. All they do now is listen to what I have to say. W said that her quietness and humbleness that I am seeing isnt what is going on inside her. W said I dont have a clue of what she is doing or about to do. W said she will see that we are D. I told her what good will that do when the only person who will be affected is D.

W didnt liked my answer and wanted to hit me. I sat calm on the couch and said why are we arguing to try to diffuse the situation. W said I walked away already(not intentionally - job relo) and when W and D came to me in December she had no intentions of reconsidering the M. I told her that I wanted out but since I dont think it would be right. W said its too late for all of this.

Immediately I begin to feel down as if I am not doing anything to make a difference. I said to myself I really need to get out of here and be by myself. The only person that is making me have some patience is D. I feel so sorry for her since I had experience of D'ed parents and its not a good relationship.

W is still planning on moving out in September and still has the intentions of D'ing. W said she will take me for all I have and will ensure that I suffer. All this after we were trying to do things right for D in order to assist with her speech difficulty. I feel like going to another state to work and live and to hell with all this. I am losing hope as the past 2 weeks have been much better than anything else.

My positive attitude is now turning into a negative one.