It has been good. Weird, really. Haven't thought much about the sitch at home at all. Hope that this will continue on my return. I know that I have a few tough spots to face this weekend--dropping kids off Sat, taking the parenting course all day Sat, then pick-up on Sun. You all saw the email that I sent about beeping the horn to avoid him for a while longer. Before I left, I had told him that I would not be initiating any contact anymore--it had to come from him, since we obviously had very different ideas about how much time and space was needed. So, it is all in his ball court. And I am done waiting around--my life is now off of hold.
I had a strange dream last night--I confronted him again about the jewelry purchase, and could somehow tell if he was lying. (There were images of him splitting into 2 personas, like a soul leaving the body, along with a Superman costume laid out on the table in front of us--told you it was a dream!) Anyway, he finally admitted that he hadn't thrown the jewelry away--but that there was ANOTHER OW involved, too! I didn't even get upset--just found it interesting in my dream and walked away. I guess something that could be useful in IC next week ;0)
I find myself being able to step back from it all, and see the whole thing from a safe place--knowing that me and the kids will be ok no matter which way things work out. I am not so sure about him, but it seems to matter less, now, as I accept that it is out of my hands.
