Need Help!!!

[LL44]

Sounds like there are some great things going on. I am very happy for you!! Baby steps and we can't scare 'em away!!

[NoDirection]

Just found out that part of the reason the phone calls were not at the high frequency was that the OG was out of town.

She still has let her guard down a bit and is acting nice toward me. She is still talking of the future, with me. It is tough though because I know he has not gone away...

[NoDirection]

Another bad day, is going out with the OG and was very blatant on the fact.

This guy is driving me nuts and is killing our relationship. She maintains that he is only a friend but their is evidence to disprove the fact.

I know this is a dip in the rollercoaster. I do not know if the time to get off is in the future...

[NoDirection]

Wife is out again with OG. Will not return calls and has been out for a more than "lunch". I am beginning to feel as if she is staying around for me to intiate the D. She is really making it hard on me, I really am beginning to believe that d is the best option and I can move forward. It just hurts right now.

I am really having a hard time believing her with this guy and it is killing me inside. This week has been better but I do not know if I can get through this until the end.

[LL44]

Oh I feel your pain. H took our kids swimming last night with OW and her kids. Heartbreaking, enough to knock you to the ground. I, too, don't know how much further I can go, putting up with this.

Feel better!

[NoDirection]

To add to things I broke down in front of her about our relationship. She does not know where she wants to go with us and likes the way things are right now(of course).

I am horrible at holding my emotions, which upsets her, and the tears rolled when I talked to her. She did say that she wanted to "see where things go", so I do have a chance. She also stated that she wanted to stay together because of our son as well.

She did try to cheer me up through all of this, which was nice. I do not want my son to grow up in a house where his parents are not in love, what type of example is that for a young man?

I guess we will be better off personally in the long run but I feel your pain right now. This is killing me.

[LL44]

I have a hard time hiding my emotions. Sometimes I think "Why do I have to hide them, this is my husband?". But I do hide them a lot. I am so sorry about your breakdown, but you did hear a few positive things from it.

Long run seems soooo long, doesn't it? SIGH

[NoDirection]

Yeah it does, but if can be worked out hopefully the rest of your life you will have to relish in the work you are doing now. That is the only hope I have right now.

There were some positives in that whole ordeal but the question is if I can get to those before it is too late.

[NoDirection]

So she is going to "her friends" (not the OG) house tonight to hang out. I think my outburst scared her away. I honestly do not care about it any more. She wants to do what she watns and is going to do it.

I am honestly at a point of letting her do so to make to easier for me to keep custody of my son. People have a limit and I think I reaching mine...and I wonder why I am sick.

[LL44]

I hope you feel better. Over the last two weeks, I have wondered when I am going to get sick, because a body can only handle so much stress, you know?

Enjoy the space tonight, find some peace, and tackle tomorrow when it comes.