thanks, lwb. interesting about the dreams...wonder if its common for people in our situation?
the bit about having my dad over to help with the tree isn't possible. trust me, I'll talk philosophy, history, literature, baseball, any variety of subjects with the man, but no way will I put myself thru the torture that would be having him help with the tree. lol. but yeah, I guess I can ask a friend/friend's husband to help out. and who knows what life will bring that far off. just can't seem to help myself thinking of those things
another thing is, our 10 year anniversary is in october. I've been thinking about it since april. can't help it. I need to have some idea what I need from the day. obviously it won't be the day I had originally hoped for...really don't see that happening. but even if we are headed for divorce, I know me well enough, I know I will place importance on that day and need to come to terms with what I want from it. I may do something special with the kids (they will always be the good that came from the marriage), or I may do a girls weekend. what I do know, at least today, is that if we are in the same place we are right now (or worse), I do NOT want to hear from H that day. I don't want to hear his voice. I don't want to see an e-mail from him. I need to let him know, when the day gets closer, that he needs to respect that. or maybe I just won't answer the phone, will have the kid answer if he calls to talk to them that day, but won't get on myself at all. we'll see. plenty of time to think about this stuff.
I'm so sorry about your h and the ow. that is heartbreaking.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
