I am so bad at this. Well, he came over and gave me the ILYBNILWY speech. I knew he had been thinking it, but I didn't know actually hearing it would be so bad. I couldn't seem to do the not crying thing. He said he didn't even know if he ever loved me. Wow, that hurt. To think that it has all been a lie. He said it was over, he was done and nothing was going to change his mind. There was no way his feelings were going to change. I reacted the wrong way.
I am not sure what to do at this point. He has already moved everything out. He is gone. I actually feel like I won't see him again. He is not going to call me and I don't think a phone call from me will be welcome at this point.
On the upside of my life I got a phone call about a job today. It is in my home town. That was always the plan for us...to move back home. Neither one of us have been happy in TX and we both want to move back home. I am going to pursue this job. If I get it, I would probably take it and then we would be almost a thousand miles between us. I am sure that wouldn't help things, but at this point I have to do what I need to do for myself.
