YR/W8ing, Trying to do that is exactly what is killing me though. Everything in my life has to do with h, the kids, our family and home. Yes, I know this is a big red flag waving, but I let it happen and now I've got to deal. Problem is I don't want to do it THIS WAY! I want my h to realize what a mistake he's making! MY feelings didn't change! Where does the love go; or maybe I shouldn't ask that...
Yesterday, he came by and was so ok to be here(even though a short visit), he even thanked me for not 'throwing him out under the circumstances.' I'm beginning to see some guilt in him and that scares me too! He's been so angry and insulting leading up to make his escape. He's been convincing himself I don't take enough responsibility in what issues 'brought us here' even though that is all I can think about.
I'm sorry; I just don't know how to deal with my crazy emotions right now. I know I'm rambling but I'm just looking for answers or solutions!! Please bear with me.
Me: 44 H: 47 M: 15 yrs SS: 20 SD: 18 S: 15 D: 11 BOMB: H left 8/4/07
