back to square -1 or -10000

[cat03]

I honestly dont' think I fully understood the art of letting go, of stop pursuing--you make perfect sense. How can they change their attitudes truthfully if we are the ones forcing them to change it for them in the name of piecing?

No, I may not agree with some of his behaviors in the future (everyday household desicions, opinions) and I'll have to keep myself from "fixing" him. Its going to take every cell of my body, when he comes back home, not to hound him and ask question after question. One thing I clearly remember from out C session is the C telling me that yes, I did have a right to ask questions about the A, but to make sure that the questions would be for a good cause, that they would promote healing.

I think I'm still in shock about this whole thing, I mean, a day like today last week all was "normal" (guess it really wasnt) and the next day I dialed a phone # and I hear that hated female voice "Hi, this is Xxxxx"...