"I am going to be 50 next month, and I had always hoped that by this age..."
Couldn't we all say that at any point in our lives?
I think when all is said and done, that we'll look back and see that though our lives were lived frequently in the "I just have to make it through this week...this crisis...this stage..." mode, somehow on this journey from one thing to the next we have managed to travel much farther and become much more than the two-dimensional images of our imaginations. The constant struggle is what makes us who we are.
You DO have many blessings. You have accomplished a lot, you have a strong, beautiful, empathetic character and despite the discouragement I know you feel, you are an inspiration to me and many others.
