Ack, I had a pretty good post written up for you and crashed. Let me try again.
It's OK for you to not know where you are. Give it some time. S'alright. You don't need the answer NOW.
This is kindof a random thought, so take it for what it's worth, but it feels like there may be something in it. You just spent a weekend with a gaggle of attractive, strong women all actively engaged in making their R's better. Your W can't help but pale in comparison to that level of engagement shown by the ladies of the Orlando Krew (anybody a graphic designer? That logo could be GD's next tat)
You've been on this road for a long time, I think you've written 15 months before you found DBing and solutions-based councelling. Since you've found DBing, your W recently seems to be opening up more and discovering the things inside of her that haven't meshed well with you and you've done the same. While a breakthrough isn't imminent, there seem to be definate signs of awakening on your W's part.
You may be done, or on your way to being there -- to crossing that line. If so, that's OK. It would be a shame for you W to decide to make it work but you be over her. That's a risk we're all taking. In the phone conversation, your W is doing what the C asked for. Seems to be a good thing.
Sorry, my brain just farted and I totally lost the thread of where I was going, so I'll just end.
BD
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Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY