Nomopo's Thread - Is something happening to me?

[Nomopo]

I'm ok Kat. Thanks. Got rained on a bit.

Thanks too bar! The Scarlet Pimpernel? I've just been unable to get online until now.

Thanks NDDT.

I think I do know what is happening, but I'm not 100% sure (are we ever?), and that is unnerving. Also, I want to be able to articulate it better, and that is a struggle right now. Finally, I know I have some emotions tweaked or charged, and I want to make sure I am thinking clearly about my goals and interests, and not be unduly influenced by my emotions.

So, part of me says why rush it, why force it, when I can put bringing it up with W off until next week. W definitely senses something is a foot, but she doesn't know what it is. Journaling: She called again this morning from her car/cell around 8:15 and I let it go to vm. She said "Hey, I'm just calling to see the kids tonight. Let me know what you're doing."

I called back to her office ten minutes later, hoping I would get her vm, but she answered:

W: Hello.
Nomo: Oh, hey. (surprised)
W: Hi. How are you doing. (upbeat)
Nomo: I'm good. Got your message. Of course you can see the kids tonight. I don't know exactly what we'll be doing so let's talk later, ok?
W: Ok.
Nomo: Alright, well, bye.
W: Are you ok? You seem/sound hostile.
Nomo: No, I'm fine. Why are you asking me that?
W: Well, you seemed really short and hostile with me on the phone last night when I called to talk to the kids and then very hostile when I called later about S7's reading evaluation.
Nomo: Well, I was frustrated about the school thing because you didn't tell me about it and I thought I had missed something important, but then I realized it wasn't anything important so it was ok.
W: Well, your tone was angry.
Nomo: Well, I was angry, but you apologized and explained it and it was fine and I think I said ok and thanks. But why did you think I was hostile on the first call?
W: Well, you just sounded short.
Nomo: You said you called to talk to the kids so I called you back and gave the phone to D4.
W: Ok. C said to talk about it when you seem hostile, so I am telling you I'm feeling that guy. Don't get mad. (Getting louder, more intense herself.)
Nomo (with a slight chuckle): Well, ok. That's fine. And now you're getting hostile. I was just wondering what you heard in that first conversation that made you feel I was being hostile.
W: Just by how short you were and it was your tone.
Nomo: Ok. Thanks. I'll talk to you later.

Not anywhere close to the way I would have preferred to handle it, but it is what it is. She could feel hostility, and there was some coldness there.

Nomo