hey Aud, thanks for your wordsI'm just sick, I had scrapped two txt msgs in which I tell him this is over, I write them... but then I just can't send him, in a very very stupid way I'm giving him yet another chance to explain himself. I dont know what to think, the phone records said he hasnt'called or txt anyone since yesterday ( 2hrs after he txt me last) For a while I thought something might've happened by now, but I'm sure I would've learned of that already.
We had such a good talk on Monday and now back to the nasty limbo, we were not supposed to see each other 'til Friday, but, since he was even txting me from the beach I can't believe he hasn't contact me. He is off still, and not one call, didn't come by. Is he still thinking? has he changed his mind completly and gone back with her?
WIsh he'd tell me one way or another, this is driving me CRAZY, I refuse to call him and do the chasing, but it is making me physically ill to be waiting like this after what I thought was a decision from him.
This is maddening, if I could I'd get a dr appt now for zoloft or something.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
