Trying to set those goals!

[Trixi]

Be warned, though.. there is a potential he is going camping with another woman. (Who the hell goes camping alone?!)

I imagine that he is going with a group of people from work. But that is what I imagine. Of course, that doesn't mean that there isn't a woman he likes going.

I also imagine if I asked *why* he is finally doing these things *now* he would say that he is trying to be independent and make a life for himself. (that is what he said about volunteering.) He said that he isn't jumping for joy about living on his own, but he "isn't going to let himself get all depressed, either". He keeps referencing being independent and if I give him the look of "what are you talking about, you were going to bars without me" he says "I'm not talking about Independent Behavior. That wasn't doing me any good. I mean being on my own."

Good news-the cable guy just got done, so I am free to leave whenever I want.

He also is in the habit now of taken a camera with him whenever he goes and does stuff with his friends and taking pictures. He didn't do that when we were together. I feel like all our time together is just worthless; not good enough to be recorded.

I don't know why I am bothering to stand. I feel completely hopeless.