H just left for work, so here I am. He was eating his breakfast, and I asked him to tell me something. When he used to come home unexpectedly during the day, and joke with me about if I had a boyfriend hiding somewhere. I said did you really think I did? And he said yes, did you? I said no, never! I just left it at that, and let him stew on it for today while he is gone, here he was suspecting me, and here I was NEVER suspecting him, and look who was the one who cheated. I have pulled away from him a little the past few days, I don't know why, maybe a little detachment is in order. I am not being mean, but I am holding myself back some. I am not telling him ILY before we go to sleep, or as much as I was. Though I do usually say it before he leaves for work, but I skipped two days this week. I don't know if he even noticed. He does enjoy the notes I put in his lunch each day, so I will keep those up. It's a good way to communicate with him, and he saves them all, and will sometimes comment on one. I really wish I could trust him again, but I am really not sure if that is possible, especially with not knowing if he is lying about no contact with ow. L
