I haven't posted in awhile. I have been trying to work on GAL and taking a break from the bb.
I have been re-reading all of your posts and taking in all of your wonderful advice. I want to thank you for everything. I hope you realize how much you have helped me to heal. You have a way of making me see things so much clearer.
I am feeling so much stronger lately. Sitting back looking at my sitch and knowing deep down inside that my H is the one who is losing out. I am proud of my accomplishments and how I am responding to him. However, still working on my wording b/c in the past I know I have come across somewhat passive and "doormatish".
I feel confident that I will be okay, but at the same time sad about the loss of my M and best friend.
This weekend H is taking d7 for the day with his family to MIL's cottage to celebrate MIL's birthday. Ow is going too.... Sigh...
This is something WE always did together. We spent many days over the past 11 years at MIL's cottage. This was a memory for US and now Ow is going to be SHARING that with him and the kids. It bothers me and makes me sad that I am not going to be a part of this weekend.
However, I refuse to let it get to me. I'm going to try to stay busy and do something fun for me.
BTW- they are also getting a new family picture done for MIL's birthday gift. D7 told me about it and then H gave me d7's outfit for the picture the other day so I could pack it for her. I just smiled and commented on how pretty the blouse was. He is so insensitive. Me on the otherhand act like I am just fine when inside I am crying.
